Zombie

Zombie

I don’t know what to write,
I’m just bored and helpless,
I can’t even type without looking at the key board,
And yet you (Subarna) talk about that job,
Sitting and typing whole night?
No, I can’t handle it.

I’m listening to the cranberries right now,
Every time I listen to it,
It reminds me of someone special,
Yes, yes it’s you and I also know that you love me more,
Currently it’s playing zombie,
What a great song that is!
Talking about the revolution, IRA I was told.

Anyhow I managed to write this long,
I just can’t believe it!

I’ll come back and writ more tomorrow here…
O wait, I found a perfect topic for this THING, Zombie.
Actually she just came here,
Closed my eyes with her cold hands soaked with detergents,
She gave me chills, coldness that is,
I think she loves me too like I love her.

Wow! That was great. I was feeling lonely,
She came, made me mad, laughed, kissed,
My loneliness gone, you know…
But now she’s gone,
It came (loneliness) back with lots of other friends,
And they are giving me trouble,

Now the song is Stars, nice song for a girl to sing,
Ha-ha, I joke sometimes,
It’s like slow ha and then ha.
Ha-ha.
But most of the time I’m the quite one.

Guess who speaks a lot?
No its not you, it’s my mind,
It’s always into something,
It doesn’t do what I tell,
It has its own world,
The world you don’t want to interfere,
So the things that I say is not what I want to say,
Sorry if I hurt you, but it’s my brain!
A little complicated thing to understand

And now there is again previous silent,
Except my computer is playing another version of zombie.
I wonder how many versions of that song exists,
… I guess a lot.

All of a sudden this thing is striking my mind,
Am I sounding like a girl? Fuck.
I don’t give a damn,
Because, I like what I’m writing,
And it’s like talking without thinking first,
My dad always tells me,
Think twice before you speak,
I know what he’s trying to say,
I totally understand it,
But I just don’t follow it,
Its like knowing cigarettes are injurious to your health,
And still you smoke it. Why? You’d want to answer me first.

My sister is hunger,
She’s looking for some food to eat,
But she is not finding anything,
Its not that there’s nothing in the kitchen,
But all the things that we have in the kitchen needs to be prepared,
So there is no fast food, junk food for her to eat,
And she’s only 11.

I bet she’ll not be like me because she’s different,
Well different in a sense that I grew up differently that her,
In a Poverty,
It was real hard for me to survive,
All those kids with nice things to wear,
Nice things to eat,
And I used to sit on the lousy school bench,
Open up the Tiffin and eat the bread and whatever…
But in a way that was good,
Because that made me a thinker,
Made me wonder why we were like that?
And now where are we?

I look around me and find different faces,
Some are looking at me,
Other just don’t give a damn for me,
Its like you are lost and half of them want to help you,
And other half don’t want to help you,
So you got the choice,
Either to get help,
Or to get lost,
You know what I will choose,
Yes, to get lost.
Lost in the strange world,
Where the things around you cannot get anymore stranger

I scrolled up,
Looked at the topic and I’m thinking why did I put that topic called zombie.
It’s not suitable. But if I change it right now then,
There wouldn’t point of writing this paragraph, isn’t it?
So let it be like that.

Oh I was in too deep with my thoughts,
I didn’t knew,
The play list is over,
Now what?
Matchbox20?
I guess not,

My dad’s home and I’m going to ask him for some money,
Of course for some cigarettes,
My girlfriend always insist me on to quit it,
But I just don’t want to. Ok?

Sometimes I feel like a bum in front of her,
She did lots of things to keep me happy,
And look at me,
I can’t even complete her request.
Well he’s here, so wish me luck!
Going to get Rs.100.